WHEW! Life has gotten the best of me again! My husband is home. 

I  made that 24 hour trip, by myself, again.

I'm back in CO.

Life should be good, right?

Instead.......I'm miserable....

....and I have no clue why....

It seems as if everyday I wake up to fight a battle that I KNOW I'll lose at the end of the day.

No hope. No faith. No confidence.

I know I'll lose.

I wake up. I struggle to put a smile on my face. And I PRAY for the day to be over.

I miss my family. 

With every beat of my heart.

 And I'm tired of being made fun of for it.

I miss my muchkins. 

I miss the smile they put on my face.

I miss being surrounded by people that infuriate the hell out of me but I know they love me more than life.

I've been blessed with a very few people in my life that can make me smile.

NO MATTER WHAT.

I thank God for these people, and I realize now that I've taken them for granted.

It seems as if I've spent more time alone since my husband is home

than I've spent in a long, long time.

and yet again...I don't know why....

On the other hand.....I'm thinkin' bout' my next tattoo....

Nothin' like signifying a low part in your life than a tattoo huh?

Lord, will you let those on my heart know I love them?

That they're never alone and that I'm right there in their heart?

~I need redemption.....how bout forgiveness?~